Many of you know that my sister and her family have been going through a lot…illness, surgeries, near death experiences, infections, ambulance rides to Dartmouth, and emergency surgeries. While most of the acute issues have been experienced in the last month, the journey has been much longer than that. Now that the water seems to be clearing and we can see the shore, I find that the heaviness of emotion; particularly fear, is too much to carry any longer. It is no longer needed, yet it still must be released.
Being Psychic does not mean you never experience fear. In fact, fear is something that can blind Psychic sight. If the fear is strong enough a Psychic can actually generate false answers for themselves. I did this once when I was much younger. My husband; who is pretty good about communication and being on time, was suppose to meet me after work. When he didn’t show up, I was surprised. When he still wasn’t home by the time we were supposed to be meeting friends, I became alarmed. The later he was, the more I became convinced something had happened to him. When I looked at my cards, they quickly confirmed my fears, and by the time he rolled into the driveway I was running across the yard crying, as I had believed him dead on the side of the road somewhere. In reality, he had a beer with the people he was doing work for at the end of the day and had no cell reception. Because of this experience, I learned how important it was to center myself before searching for psychic information. But from time to time I need to be reminded.
When my sister called me to say that both she and her son were facing life-threatening situation her crying triggered me. We are so deeply connected, that even though we have a year and a half between us, we consider ourselves twins. After getting off the phone with her I found myself floundering, in a quick and powerful spot of fear. It wasn’t until my husband said to me “Have you looked at your cards?” that I even considered scrying. Moments after being reminded I was able to calm and center and know that all would be well. That being said my body still experienced an adrenaline dump, it had gone into fight or flight mode before I was able to center. This type of energy does not simply dissipate, it requires a release. When we do not release this emotional sludge it affects our health and well being.
Most people go through a crisis like a horse with blinders on; focusing on that which must be done, the goal at hand. We deny ourselves the luxury of wading in our emotions for there is no room for them. When the crisis is over it is not uncommon to find ourselves exhausted, and emotionally sensitive. This is because our vessel is full. We can not just go on with our lives, we must first release our burden and fears. This must be done for true healing to begin. Whether we are the one experiencing the trauma or the support for others going through it, the emotional heaviness of the situation must be addressed. My release often comes in the form of tears. In fact, whether I am happy, sad or angry tears are likely to show up.
This read is about community, intention, and kindness so I will spin you back up to my opening paragraph…The catalyst for my emotional warble was receiving back to back hugs from 3 of the most solid people I know.
I had not had a day off in almost a month, that I was not in a hospital holding space for surgery, sitting with my sister as she recuperated or going with her to a doctors appointment. The emotional roller coaster of the month had finally seemed to slow and I was looking forward to time off when my husband got sick. As we run a cafe/wellness center someone had to take his shifts and that someone ended up being me. After the second day of doing his job and my job, I was truly feeling beat. At the end of the day, I hoped that no one would show up for my sound meditation class, as I really wanted to go home.
The first person to show up was a friend of mine who is solid as the earth and has blood that runs a bit gnomish. I told her if it was just her and I that I was going to cancel, then another of my regulars came in; who lives on a family farm and is a solid, salt of the Earth kind of person. I decided to cancel and the three of us just stood around talking for a moment, me giving them the update on my sisters family. Then my farm-guy, plow-man neighbor came in, another solid, reliable, kind person. When I explained we were closed and he walked over and gave me a hug. Then came another from my salt of the Earth woman, and then finally from Gnomie.
I was OK, until about 5 minutes into my drive and then it hit me. I think it was their solidness, that reminded me of all the love and support our family has received during this stressful time. Their hugs represented all of the prayers, reiki, and love that people had shared. I was overcome with how lucky I am to live in such a community, where people genuinely care about one another. All too often we are shown the terrible things that human beings are capable of. It is so refreshing to be reminded of the beauty and kindness that we are also capable of.
The power of intention is an amazing thing that can be used for good or bad. It is also something made stronger by group belief. The more people believing in an outcome, the more likely it will come to be. With this in mind, I encourage you to start monitoring your thoughts. What goes through your mind on a regular basis, are the things you are thinking about what you want to see come to pass or what you fear? If your mind wanders toward fear, hate, and anger, redirect it. Give it a different focus. Focus on the good you want to see in the world…make it so!